Reunion--again!

I did not have the chance to post this earlier this week. I wanted to share some pics that were taken last weekend when our friends Regina and Colby were in town. It was so good to see them again. Unfortunately, we don't get to see them that often, but we hope to be seeing them more often in the future!

Tara, Regina, and I

Colby and Shane

Regina and Colby

How do you like my new "Do?"

Last Wednesday, I had an appointment to get my hair cut. I had been thinking of cutting it short for a couple of weeks, but I wasn't really sure what to do with it. When I talke to Laura, my hairdresser, she said "why don't we do a short bob haircut?" Not knowing really what I wanted, I said "OK." Here is how it turned out:

I think it is a little shorter than I would have liked, but that is the great thing about hair--it grows!!

From disappointment to blessings

Today I was scheduled for the embryo transfer, but this morning the nurse called to tell me that my embryo had not survived the thaw. I was devastated. I really did not expect it. I was completely ready for it to happen! I had done all the labwork, I had taken all the medicine, and I had mentally prepared myself for this, and now I was not going to get the opportunity to see it through. My first question: WHY God? My second question: Are you really there God? My third question: What do I do now? After I boohooed about it, asked my questions to God, and took a shower, I tried to focus on my blessings for the rest of the day. Here is what I came up with: (bear with me, some of them are a little cheesy)

• It is OVER! I know my answer now, rather than later
• I get to keep running and training for the half marathon
• I get to keep my body shape (although I would like my hips to be a little SMALLER :) )
• I no longer need to take my heart medicine (WooHoo!!)
• I have a wonderful husband who loves me
• Most of my family is relatively healthy (including my dogs)
• I have awesome friends in my life who have prayed for me diligently through this
• God IS still there

All day as I was listening to my Ipod, every song that played offered me hope. They reminded me that God IS still there, He has never left, and never will leave me. I just have to keep focused on Him and He will tell me what to do next. I know that I will survive.

July 17th

As I posted before, we are going to use my last embryo this month. I called my doctor's nurse on Monday and she scheduled me for an ultrasound on July 11th. If everything looks good, then the plan is to implant the embryo on July 17th, and then have a blood test on July 31st to see if it worked. I have a mixture of emotions at this point: excited, nervous, calm, peaceful, and anxious. I am not sure how you can have all of those at once, but I am there! At times I am planning for the baby and my life as a new mom, and other times I am thinking about running the Houston half marahton (which I signed up for yesterday, just in case). I do not want to be too hopeful, so I am continuing life as usual. But at the same time, I want to be excited, but no so much that I will devastated if it does not work. I think right now I have a good balance, so let's hope it stays that way! I will keep you posted as we go along!